My lanta. 8 whole hours studying. Im in pain. My brain is shot. My fingers are numb. My speech is, well...lacking. My back is a disaster from sitting curled in the pretzel position on my bed trying to get comfy whilst study'hing. After this week of mid terms is over, I will rejoice, like a banchie:)
After speakin with Sara this evening I agree with her that we should try and be more open about our feelings towards friends and family. I know for a fact I dont tell my family I love them as much as I should. Truth is I would absolutly fall apart without them. Same with friends. I consider a lot of them my family. They are such a unique gift, one that we could have our whole lives! You don't return them when you've found a nicer one somewhere else, or exchange them for a different size. We're really lucky. I guess I find it hard to express feelings cause your not sure how the other person is going to react. With girls it's not so bad, but with guys it can be really awkward. Telling them your feelings can back fire and ruin, but it could also not back fire and blossum. Like flippin' a coin, heads or tails? back fire or blossum? I think its a touchy subject we all know exists but avoid.
I've been trying to grasp the whole "live each day like it is your last" but it's hard. I never ever think, "tomorrow I might not be here, so I should do this" or "Im going to die soon, so better bla bla bla" Is that a bad thing? Im looking forward to everything my life has to offer, not having that/going through it, would be...different? weird? *lack of better words* Hopefully Im around for oodles of time so I can experience everything and leave here fulfilled. Im such a hopeless romantic. I can't wait to meet my husband, and have children and grand children. I feel I need to get that ball rolling, not uber rolling, but just a little push down the stairs. I'll be 20 next year, and that scares the crappers outta me. Seems like such a large number, seeings how it takes 365 days to get to the next number. Man. I've been alive for approx. 7300 days. What have I got to show? lol. Kinda puts things in perspective dont it?
Will and Grace this evening was a funny episode! *watched it while I studied to keep my sanity* Karen delights me SO much, the things she says are so uncalled for, her character pulls it off like no ones business. And Jack, gosh, him and Karen could have their own show and would prolly get 2wice the ratings that Will and Grace the show does. This episode was where Grace took the gang up to Karen's lodge cause she wanted it to be "Will's weekend", to cheer him up due to the fact that it would have been him and his boyfriends anniversary, bla bla bla. The things Jack and Karen were saying were histerical, and so well said.
*Karen reads that her cook died*
Karen: "What? Cook died?! Oh nooo! .... Who's going to cook for us!!"
Grace: "Your cook's name is Cook?"
Karen: "No hunnie. I just dont remember his name. Umm. Lets see here, it'll come to me. Where are my damn eggs?....PAUL!"
*Karen explains why Stan didnt come with*
Grace: "So where's Stan this weekend?"
Karen: "Ahhh, he took his kids to see their mother, ugh!" .... "I cant remember her name. What is it? Lets see here, it'll come to me. Take the kids to see that bitch?....CATHY!"
HAHAHAH LOVE IT!
Oh and Jack was trying to claim that "spramp" was a word while playing scrabble.
Will: "Spramp is not a word! ... Use it in a sentance!!"
Jack: "In the morning, I *spramp* my face with water" ... "The bubbles in a jaquoozi *spramp* up!" and he made a sprampy hand gesture to illustate what it is to spramp. Priceless.
-->later<--
Grace: "Im spramped if I do! Spramped if I dont!"
Okay ...seeings how I had a little nappy earlier in the day, Im not all that tired. But I'll be stark mad in the morning, and will think "why didnt you go to sleep EARLIER!?" and then you feel all sad that you have to wait HOURS till its bed time again that night. But ohhh, if your me, you only have to go a few hours before bed time, cause I've turned into the napping whore. Yes thats correct. I have no life. I sleep and study and go to school and sleep. Yeah, I think I'd be pretty *spramped* if I died tomorrow.
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